Fi

** Pulitzer Prize Finalist 2025 in Memoir/Autobiography **

The story of a mother grieving the sudden loss of her twenty-one-year-old child - from the award-winning and bestselling memoirist of Don't Let's Go to the Dogs Tonight

'Truly extraordinary' HELEN MACDONALD

'A mesmeric celebration... Will help others surviving loss - surviving life'
NEW YORK TIMES

It's midsummer in Wyoming and Alexandra Fuller is barely hanging on. Grieving her father and pining for her home country of Zimbabwe, reeling from a midlife breakup, freshly sober and piecing her way uncertainly through a volatile new relationship with a younger woman, Alexandra vows to get herself back on even keel.

And then - suddenly and incomprehensibly - her son Fi, at twenty-one years old, dies in his sleep.

From a sheep wagon deep in the mountains of Wyoming to a grief sanctuary in New Mexico to a silent meditation retreat in Alberta, Canada, Alexandra embarks on a journey up and down the spine of the Rocky Mountains trying to find out how to grieve herself whole.

'For anyone who's ever loved and lost, or ever will; in short, a book for us all'
OPRAH DAILY

'A profound and gripping memoir about surviving unexpected, devastating loss'
SUNDAY TIMES

'Profound and defiantly enthralling'
WASHINGTON POST

* A Book of the Year for the New York Times, Washington Post and Time *